The countdown begins….Dec 21st, 2012 | By Nina | Category: Sparkle of the Day
Today 9 years ago I was taking my son and daughter to the park in Palm Springs to play. After a morning filled with fun, swinging and running around in circles we then went to grab some lunch to bring it back to the house.
That was the last day at the park for my baby boy…What followed after lunch was the beginning of the moment that would forever change me and everyone that was there.
As you know I always try to stay sparkly and positive but starting on December 21st of each year until Christmas Day I beat myself up. Sometimes it’s because I feel like I have to and sometimes it’s because I don’t have a choice to fight it. It’s almost as if it comes over me.
It was quite ironic this morning as I was watching the news and they stopped the program for the moment of silence for all of the children and adults lost to the horrific tragedy in Connecticut. As I sat in silence feeling the pain that I hold in my heart I looked to those who now share that same pain which will never, ever go away. My heart aches for them as I know starting my year 9 without Q is a forever journey of breathing, feeling and learning to live again with what overcomes our heads and our hearts. When the tragedy in Connecticut happened and I was watching it on the news with my daughter Morgan she looked over at me and said, “Mommy, now they know how we feel.” I thought I was going to break right there and then. I looked at her beautiful eyes and said, “I know baby girl, we are not alone. It’s so sad.”
So I will tell you the next few blogs may not be the sparkliest ones but they are true to my heart at this moment.
Sending all of you love and sparkles xoxox